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bat echat!
happy birthday yelei! it's your first birthday! you just started to take your first steps yesterday, and you're already getting so big. i have a really bad memory, sweetheart, but i can remember holding you, very new, in front of our family and friends. we held you and we read to you what i hope for you.
i still hope for you only happiness. i hope for you, of course, so many things, but i hope, most of all, that you are happy. i think about it, now, are you happy? i am not so good sometimes with little little kids. i feel like, even more, maybe i have spent a little bit less time with you, too. i'm sorry. i know more and more i have been trying to make sure i'm explaing to aviyah and explaining to you how important you are and how much i love you.
i know it is not important to you now, but sometimes it is hard with more kids. i used to think that i wanted 9 kids. i wanted to have a baseball team i said because there are so many different personalities on a baseball team and you all could be so different. now, though, i think it's a lot harder than that. what position would you be, though?
you're so much different than aviyah. you are your very own little lady. you are independent and peaceful and you also jack all the other kids of their toys when you see them. you even take toys from aviyah and she's so much bigger, but it's like she doesn't know what to do. i am so happy that you are so independent, and i really hope that you like that. i worry, sometimes, that maybe it's because we aren't able to give you exactly as much time as we gave aviyah when she was little.
i don't want to say that we don't spend a lot of time with you. we do. and i don't want to say that we don't love you with everything and forever. we do! we also are always thinking about how to make sure you are getting enough, to make sure that you are getting your full life, and to be honest, i think sometimes we gave aviyah a little bit too much attention. it's so funny , though, too, maybe you are just different. it's so hard to figure those things out. are you different because you are different? are you different because we are different?
i still hope for you only happiness. i hope for you, of course, so many things, but i hope, most of all, that you are happy. i think about it, now, are you happy? i am not so good sometimes with little little kids. i feel like, even more, maybe i have spent a little bit less time with you, too. i'm sorry. i know more and more i have been trying to make sure i'm explaing to aviyah and explaining to you how important you are and how much i love you.
i know it is not important to you now, but sometimes it is hard with more kids. i used to think that i wanted 9 kids. i wanted to have a baseball team i said because there are so many different personalities on a baseball team and you all could be so different. now, though, i think it's a lot harder than that. what position would you be, though?
you're so much different than aviyah. you are your very own little lady. you are independent and peaceful and you also jack all the other kids of their toys when you see them. you even take toys from aviyah and she's so much bigger, but it's like she doesn't know what to do. i am so happy that you are so independent, and i really hope that you like that. i worry, sometimes, that maybe it's because we aren't able to give you exactly as much time as we gave aviyah when she was little.
i don't want to say that we don't spend a lot of time with you. we do. and i don't want to say that we don't love you with everything and forever. we do! we also are always thinking about how to make sure you are getting enough, to make sure that you are getting your full life, and to be honest, i think sometimes we gave aviyah a little bit too much attention. it's so funny , though, too, maybe you are just different. it's so hard to figure those things out. are you different because you are different? are you different because we are different?
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